Part 4 of 7
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When the temping agency called to inquire whether I would take on an extra days work, I did make an exception to my one or two days only ‘temping’ experiment. I went in for the day to work in the marketing department of one of the top 10 mortgage companies in the country. It was great fun! I loved the department, the company and the job. I continued with my morning and nighttime exercises, and next week they called me back for two more days. At the end of those days, the manager said to me, “Would you ever consider coming to work full time?”
At this point, although a regular paycheck sounded great, I still had visions of being my own boss in my own company. Plus their offices were an hour drive from my home. “Thank you, but no, I don’t think it would work for me.”
I continued to temp for this mortgage company and continued to have great fun. I also continued to do my metaphysical work at home. So often, we are tempted to look at what isn’t happening fast enough in our lives, and become disheartened. If we can just look at the most positive aspects of everything that happens to us, and focus on those, it is amazing how more and more positive things magically come our way.
Just two weeks later, my manager again came to me. “I know you don’t want to be tied down to a job, and I know you don’t want to commute two hours a day to work and back. So I’ve been thinking, what if you came to work for us just until you want to do something else? We can call it temporary. And you don’t even have to come into the office more often than you do right now – just one or two days a week. The rest of the time you can work from home.”
She offered me a very healthy salary on top of that. “Wow,” I thought, “This stuff (conscious creation) really works!” And since I was having a lot of fun, I said yes!
It wasn’t all smooth sailing from there. My boss really liked to be in control. I liked her as a person. She taught me a lot about our industry. But Sue felt obliged to make every person in the company love her, which translated into over-promise and try-like-crazy to over-deliver. Needless to say, we were always running to the airport to drop off overnight packages and meet virtually impossible deadlines. It was a frenetic and stressful working environment.
I had to keep reminding myself, “Hey, I am creating this… by letting it happen or making it happen – so what am I going to do about it?” Just reminding myself that I wasn’t powerless went a long way towards shifting my energy. Sometimes the pressure got to me and I caught myself not enjoying my work and only focusing on how quickly I could get it done and how much more there remained to be completed. When I caught myself stressing out I would go to the ladies room and just sit and close my eyes, imagining the way I didwant to feel… peaceful, centered, creative, accomplished, receptive, successful, prosperous… and soon, I did feel that way, and I returned to work.
I was amazed. I stayed positive, did not judge what the universe presented to me, and the opportunities continued to appear. It was just as I’d always hoped! Prior to this stage in my life, I had so much weight (read judgment and control) attached as to how I needed to succeed, I never let success happen.
In very short order, I was ghost writing articles for the president of this 9 billion dollar company, and making myself virtually indispensable to the team. We moved our offices into a new building and I had a blast with the design, build-out and move. I instituted lots of new ideas and directions, and soon a year had passed by and it was time for my review.
I imagined exiting the review meeting with my boss… I felt joyous, expansive, and of course, prosperous! The day of the actual meeting, my boss began, “Well, you have been doing an amazing job. I rated you the highest I’ve ever rated anyone. And I put you in for the highest raise possible, but corporate rejected it.”
I stared back, blinking. Was my creating not working? Or was my prosperity to come to me through another avenue? I was ok with that… I didn’t need to control it coming one way over another. I trusted it would continue to come. I settled back into my chair.
Then she smiled, “Corporate said if you truly did that great of a job, the standard raise was not enough, and they added 10% on top of my recommendation. Congratulations!”
I smiled at Sue, and I smiled internally too. And I thanked my guides and spirit helpers… what a phenomenal universe we live in.
I kept up the ‘creating’ work I was doing… and when I’d feel constricted or angry I would change the beliefs that stood in the way of what I wanted. The job continued to be creative and fun, and I continued to be grateful for my success and imagined even more success coming!
A few months later, the president of the company called the entire department in for a meeting. He announced he was leaving the company. He invited us all to go with him to form a new marketing company to service companies like ours across the country.
I faced a tough choice – how does one know what action to take when consciously creating one’s reality?
There is a fail proof way… and you’ll find out in part 5!
In joyous creation,