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When I initially heard about the law of attraction I was so freakin’ excited! This is my ticket out of here! I thought. Here being stuck in scarcity, struggle, a co-dependent relationship, and deep frustration that I didn’t have all I wanted in my life. Back then, I spent a lot of time in tears. In retrospect, at some deep, deep level I knew that a life I loved was possible, but I also knew I wasn’t living it. In fact, I had no clue how to live that life—and that fact made me crazy.
I was determined to change whatever I needed to change in order to love every minute of my life. Right off the bat, some things did change. I began to manifest a little more money. I began to study with a remarkable spiritual teacher whom I still study with to this day. And I was dreaming big for the first time in my life.
I wanted to be happy in my work. I wanted to be free, creatively and financially. I wanted to deepen the love in my relationship with my husband. But those parts of my life just weren’t working.
I tried to create those dreams, but it was like a bright flashlight shone on everything I thought was good in my world, and revealed the terrible truth beneath the surface.
I’d been pursuing a joint JD/MBA when I suddenly realized (after a particularly difficult year in which my mother died of cancer and my brother lost his leg in an industrial accident), that corporate law was not my idea of a fun career. The two tragedies in my life highlighted the fact that life was too short not to follow my bliss.
After I discovered that I’d been sexually abused as a toddler, I realized I’d avoided true intimacy with men. I pleaded with my husband to expand our intimacy, but that wasn’t what he’d signed up for, and we divorced soon thereafter.
During this time, my teen and pre-teen sons were acting out and after much soul-searching I agreed to let them move in with their dad. A week later I received a letter from my ex-husband’s lawyer letting me know he and our sons were moving across the country.
At the same time, I was financially on the verge of bankruptcy (which I did declare shortly thereafter). My house was in foreclosure. I had no idea how to make money or what it was that would fill me with joy. I felt ashamed, hopeless, and totally helpless.
I was living a life I hated. The law of attraction had failed me and I was fed up with feeling like a failure. At that point I was afraid when the mail was delivered or the phone rang because it was always about another bill that needed to be paid. I stopped focusing on my dreams and I began focusing on one and only one thing: being happy in the moment.
I didn’t realize it at the time, making happiness my priority allowed me an “emotional reset.” The truth became crystal clear: it’s your emotions that actually create your reality. When I stopped feeling like a victim, stopped feeling afraid, hopeless, and powerless, my reality stopped being unhappy.
Only gratitude and happiness were allowed to be felt. It didn’t take long for my reality to shift. Within a week I was offered a job—as a temp—so no huge success there. It only paid $10 an hour. But the energy was moving, and more importantly, I was happy.
I would get to my temp job a little early each day (I was unsure of where the offices were located and I wanted to give myself some extra time). I’d sit in my car and do a short meditation while I waited for my start time.
I’d imagine myself sitting in a little outdoor café in the south of France. My higher self was there with me, as were my future self (the one who loves her life), and my subconscious mind. I would talk to them about what I wanted my day to be like. But I didn’t talk about the things I wanted. I explained to them only how I wanted to feel.
and because I didn’t think they understood what I meant by that (after all, I’d been asking for prosperity for years!), I felt it for them. I imagined receiving a bank statement in the mail, opening it up, and seeing a ton of zeros! I felt absolutely abundant!
I also wanted to feel excited, creative, happy, appreciated, and like I was making a difference in the world—and I felt each one of those emotions so my manifestation team would know the essence of my desires. I also did a few other things, and before long my entire life was transformed.
Within two weeks I was offered a full time job at a great salary. It was a little further than I’d wanted to drive so I initially said no, but then they said I could work at home four days a week!
Within two years I was offered the vice-presidency of a startup and given a percentage of the company.
When that marketing company closed its doors (only six months later, but no worries, this is where the story gets good), a friend and I took $50 each to incorporate a new marketing company. I ran it out of my home and she was the silent partner.
I bought her out six months later and within five years the company was grossing $5 million a year.