Finances have been a bugaboo for me for awhile now, so as I’ve read and followed The Map’s “conscious creating” steps, financial abundance has been high on my list of things I wish to create.
On Monday, I closed on the refinancing of my home. As a result, I have some extra money because I won’t have any mortgage payments for the months of January and February. Also, in February, I’ll receive a quarterly annuity check that will help my finances considerably, and by the end of February I expect I’ll be getting a good-sized tax refund.
For a couple of weeks I’ve been thinking to myself, “This is going to be a great period of abundance. I can do a few things I’ve wanted to do but couldn’t afford lately, and I can buy a few things I’ve needed, but felt I couldn’t afford.” I also (almost unconsciously) simultaneously thought: “And after February, things will go back to normal.”
Tonight, I was sitting at the computer and I had an “AHA!” moment that almost lifted me out of my chair. “Wait,” I said to myself, “this IS the abundance I’ve been working towards. My dearest creative self, accept this as the beginning of an abundant life. If you think this is a momentary diversion from life ‘as usual,’ you are missing the point and adding an unnecessary limitation to the process!” I got up from my chair yelling, “I’ve got it! I think I finally get it!”
I find it interesting that my picture of how it will look when it’s working is different than how it looks in reality!